This is it. I can't even fit into pants I bought last year.
Last friggin year! I have no idea WHY I just gained that
much weight this year. Okay, maybe I have some idea, and it
has to do with me not going into uni to work anymore hence
losing my daily walk from Mt Eden to uni. But still! This is
scary. So here's the plan: eat less, or more importantly,
eat healthy, and try to get my ass out there and start
jogging again.
Petey keeps worrying that I might turn to the other extreme
and gone anorexic. In a way, I'm a little bit worried too.
Butthen hopefully so long as I'm mindful of it, and make sure
I don't over do the diet (and still keep eating) I should be
fine. I hope. Besides: I doubt I can give up food myself. :P
For the past two days I've been doing pretty well diet wise.
I'm not overeating anymore, and I'm not eating til I can more
just because it's something I like to eat. Exercise wise...
well... I walked around the block if that counts? But I'm
walking to and from Mt Eden today anyway, that should help.
Anyway, as for my research: it's getting somewhere. I'm hoping
the laptop can be here soon so I can actually take the thing to
work and show people what I'm done so far and how things are
looking and all. But alas: getting things done around here is
still very much a long painful journey. I'm hoping it'd get
there before christmas, but somehow I'm not too optimistic
anymore...
Anyway, heaps of things to read, and coffee is starting to kick
in. I might come into uni more often this week. Hopefully. It
still depends on laptop, especially now that I'm moving onto the
whole data analysis stage. Not having a computer fast enough to
work with things tends to make life a wee bit difficult.
/All reading and no coding makes Lisa a dull girl
Monday, November 08, 2004
Friday, November 05, 2004
Guy Fawkes!!
I always thought Guy Fawkes was a funny idea: we celebrate the fact that someone tried to blow up the government house by playing fireworks. But then who cares, as long as you have pretty fireworks to play with, right? Ah... see I bet your father didn't explain to you that playing with fireworks is like burning money. Mine did. Well, sort of. Maybe he hasn't but that would be the kind of thing he'd tell me. I still think I grow up to be the stingy bitter person I am today because of him. Mostly because of him. The rest I'll blame it on the fact that PhD funding isn't all that much.
Anyway, spent the past two days playing with data. It's quite amazing when you finally get to play with so much data that it actually use up ALL of the computer's memory. I feel like a grown up. You don't ever have the feeling that you're doing REAL work and not just dummy play problems until you get to the point where it eats up all the computer's memory. It's almost beautiful. Although I don't think my computer is too happy at the moment.
Anyway, Back to playing with data (aka research). I don't know about tonight yet: was gonna go to Guy Fawkes with Pete's family tonight but apparently that's cancelled. Damn. And I went and bought a box of fireworks including one where fireworks shoots out of a chicken's ass. (I thought his little brother might like it...) Oh well, I think some friends are going on Saturday anyway and I might just have to save my chicken ass firework until then.
Anyway, spent the past two days playing with data. It's quite amazing when you finally get to play with so much data that it actually use up ALL of the computer's memory. I feel like a grown up. You don't ever have the feeling that you're doing REAL work and not just dummy play problems until you get to the point where it eats up all the computer's memory. It's almost beautiful. Although I don't think my computer is too happy at the moment.
Anyway, Back to playing with data (aka research). I don't know about tonight yet: was gonna go to Guy Fawkes with Pete's family tonight but apparently that's cancelled. Damn. And I went and bought a box of fireworks including one where fireworks shoots out of a chicken's ass. (I thought his little brother might like it...) Oh well, I think some friends are going on Saturday anyway and I might just have to save my chicken ass firework until then.
Thursday, November 04, 2004
It's the end of the world as we know it
'Tis a sad day.
The bully has yet won again, and the sad fact is a whole nation is so blind and narrow minded that they don't even know what he's done to the country.
I can't believe that some people just can't see what the rest of the world is seeing. They all know that he's a joke and to let him be a leader is a mockery to the country. The rest of the world can all see it. No one likes him. In fact, no one even like the country. The arrogance and the ignorance is almost embarrassing. Okay, I can't say EVERYONE fits that stereotype. I do know quite a few decent people from the land of the evil chimp who knows actually see what the rest of the world sees. It's the big bully in the international playground. They have been brainwashed by the media. It's a bit like, dare I say it, Nazi Germany.
No one ever gives the rights to anyone to claim to be the leader of the world. And even if they do, it's definitely not the place where it has the highest crime rates and full of other assorted social problems. Why they think they're superior is beyond me. I mean, just because they're decided invading another country because they may or may not have some unknown weapon (and definitely oil) does not make them the leader. Just because they're oblivious as to what the rest of the world is like right now does not make them the right to claim as the superior superpower. Their power comes in military, how they will just go invade should they THINK the other country need rescuing.
All this come from the lack of the sense of world view. I suppose when you have a big country like that you don't need to go outside. But how that differs from some kids staying at home all their lives and claim they're better than everyone else I wouldn't have a clue. To the people over in that other corner of the world who actually thought about their votes and lost: don't feel too bad, you put up a good fight. But the country on the whole still need to see the bigger picture and actually realise what a mess they're in. In fact, you know what? The whole country need to go on Dr. Phil.
/Now understand why talk shows are only really successful in that country which shall remain nameless.
The bully has yet won again, and the sad fact is a whole nation is so blind and narrow minded that they don't even know what he's done to the country.
I can't believe that some people just can't see what the rest of the world is seeing. They all know that he's a joke and to let him be a leader is a mockery to the country. The rest of the world can all see it. No one likes him. In fact, no one even like the country. The arrogance and the ignorance is almost embarrassing. Okay, I can't say EVERYONE fits that stereotype. I do know quite a few decent people from the land of the evil chimp who knows actually see what the rest of the world sees. It's the big bully in the international playground. They have been brainwashed by the media. It's a bit like, dare I say it, Nazi Germany.
No one ever gives the rights to anyone to claim to be the leader of the world. And even if they do, it's definitely not the place where it has the highest crime rates and full of other assorted social problems. Why they think they're superior is beyond me. I mean, just because they're decided invading another country because they may or may not have some unknown weapon (and definitely oil) does not make them the leader. Just because they're oblivious as to what the rest of the world is like right now does not make them the right to claim as the superior superpower. Their power comes in military, how they will just go invade should they THINK the other country need rescuing.
All this come from the lack of the sense of world view. I suppose when you have a big country like that you don't need to go outside. But how that differs from some kids staying at home all their lives and claim they're better than everyone else I wouldn't have a clue. To the people over in that other corner of the world who actually thought about their votes and lost: don't feel too bad, you put up a good fight. But the country on the whole still need to see the bigger picture and actually realise what a mess they're in. In fact, you know what? The whole country need to go on Dr. Phil.
/Now understand why talk shows are only really successful in that country which shall remain nameless.
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Be afriad. Be very afriad.
As of the time of writing, vote counting still go on somewhere on the other side of the globe. Right here in this little country known as New Zealand, we can all but wait and hope US citizen have enough sense to vote for the right president.
Don't give me any crap about how it's not my business since I'm not an American. Who get to be the American president could affect the rest of the world. Well, ok, rephrase: if Bush is there for another term the world's going into chaos.
My friend mentioned he can't believe the propaganda that's going on in US. You would've thought that sort of thing only happen in some sort of country under a dictatorship. The media is so skewed that it's basically propaganda. They have no idea what's go on outside their country, and that's just sad. Having said that, it's not all of them that are clueless. I know some American friends who's actually apologised on behave on their country just because how big of a joke they know they are.
But what can I do? I even try to submit an anticle about how the whole world KNOWS we can't have Bush there for another term to fark and they won't greenlight it. Grrrrrr. So all I can do is sit here, and be afriad...
PLEASE don't let Bush win.... :|
Don't give me any crap about how it's not my business since I'm not an American. Who get to be the American president could affect the rest of the world. Well, ok, rephrase: if Bush is there for another term the world's going into chaos.
My friend mentioned he can't believe the propaganda that's going on in US. You would've thought that sort of thing only happen in some sort of country under a dictatorship. The media is so skewed that it's basically propaganda. They have no idea what's go on outside their country, and that's just sad. Having said that, it's not all of them that are clueless. I know some American friends who's actually apologised on behave on their country just because how big of a joke they know they are.
But what can I do? I even try to submit an anticle about how the whole world KNOWS we can't have Bush there for another term to fark and they won't greenlight it. Grrrrrr. So all I can do is sit here, and be afriad...
PLEASE don't let Bush win.... :|
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Motivational speech
Talking to fellow PhD students is always motivational. They'll
tell you that it's only going to get less interesting and
workload will only decrease. It's all down hill from the day
you enroll. All enthusiasm still survived after the first few
months or so will slowly die. I can't wait. *sarcasm*
I made an effort today to tell myself I need to work harder. I
shall work full days rather than half days, and I shall make an
effort to go into uni/psuedo-work more than twice a week. And
then I found out my usual parking spot around uni has work going
on, and parking is once again a race against time and you have
to get there ridiculously early to get a spot. The work on its
own is ridiculous anyway: they're building a carpark inside a
carpark. o_O It's an office carpark to start with and now
they're building a carpark there. Go figure.
Okay, time to get motivational. I'm going to get some V. :P
tell you that it's only going to get less interesting and
workload will only decrease. It's all down hill from the day
you enroll. All enthusiasm still survived after the first few
months or so will slowly die. I can't wait. *sarcasm*
I made an effort today to tell myself I need to work harder. I
shall work full days rather than half days, and I shall make an
effort to go into uni/psuedo-work more than twice a week. And
then I found out my usual parking spot around uni has work going
on, and parking is once again a race against time and you have
to get there ridiculously early to get a spot. The work on its
own is ridiculous anyway: they're building a carpark inside a
carpark. o_O It's an office carpark to start with and now
they're building a carpark there. Go figure.
Okay, time to get motivational. I'm going to get some V. :P
It's like a journey I just don't have the map for
It's scary to read old diary entries, not so much because of all those heartbreak I've written there, but more because how immature I was, and not realising that I was immature. I know, I was young back then and all. But some of the things I've written not so long ago still sound immature. I'm not too sure whether I've just grown in these time, or I'm still very immature and not realising it until I stand back to see it objectively.
To tell the truth sometimes I'm very scared that I think I'm not growing up. I don't know how to handle most things and that scares me. Honestly sometimes I wonder how this whole life thing works. Maybe I'm still young. Still, I'm supposed to be an adult now. It's not like I'm still in high school.
Anyway, immature or not, there's still research to be done. I better be off...
To tell the truth sometimes I'm very scared that I think I'm not growing up. I don't know how to handle most things and that scares me. Honestly sometimes I wonder how this whole life thing works. Maybe I'm still young. Still, I'm supposed to be an adult now. It's not like I'm still in high school.
Anyway, immature or not, there's still research to be done. I better be off...
Monday, November 01, 2004
Motivational speech
Talking to fellow PhD students is always motivational. They'll tell you that it's only going to get less interesting and workload will only decrease. It's all down hill from the day you enroll. All enthusiasm still survived after the first few months or so will slowly die. I can't wait. *sarcasm*
I made an effort today to tell myself I need to work harder. I shall work full days rather than half days, and I shall make an effort to go into uni/psuedo-work more than twice a week. And then I found out my usual parking spot around uni has work going on, and parking is once again a race against time and you have to get there ridiculously early to get a spot. The work on its own is ridiculous anyway: they're building a carpark inside a carpark. o_O It's an office carpark to start with and now they're building a carpark there. Go figure.
Okay, time to get motivational. I'm going to get some V. :P
I made an effort today to tell myself I need to work harder. I shall work full days rather than half days, and I shall make an effort to go into uni/psuedo-work more than twice a week. And then I found out my usual parking spot around uni has work going on, and parking is once again a race against time and you have to get there ridiculously early to get a spot. The work on its own is ridiculous anyway: they're building a carpark inside a carpark. o_O It's an office carpark to start with and now they're building a carpark there. Go figure.
Okay, time to get motivational. I'm going to get some V. :P
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